everytime

i feel unattached
and distant
a faded mind
from drugs and alcohol
my body is alive
but my mind
is tired and torn
you feel very far away
but you should be close
you push me off and away from you
like i’m a piece of nothing
and then realise too late

i’m not something to simply brush aside
when will you learn
that i’m more than just something that makes you feel good

but in a single movement
you erase the bad
a quiet look
or a brush of your hand on my cheek
a gentle kiss
whispered words
and i fall for you again
and again